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May 23

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Anonymous asked: why are your schoolmates the way that they are :( your post re: the boys and girls dress-up gathering thing made me sad i don't even know :(

I don’t know anon!!! It makes me so upset too :( the thing is that it’s not just my schoolmates - their ideas are not contained within the bubble of my school. a lot of people would find what they’re doing 100% a-okay and those people are in the majority, which means they would have an easier time getting their voices heard and influencing the media that my schoolmates consume and my schoolmates just perpetuate these harmful ideas without thinking and they don’t think because they haven’t been encouraged to think, they have never been told that what they’re doing is wrong and it just loops around and around idk if this even makes sense 

i was talking to effie about it and we both agreed that they could’ve done it in a completely different way, they could’ve had the intent instead to mess around with gender roles in order to subvert them rather than reinforce them, ya know? (to paraphrase what effie said, i think she put it better than i did.) but they just made it a big joke though 

i don’t know it really is very upsetting and i feel so uncomfortable around them 

May 22

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at lunch today my friends started getting excited about tomorrow because tomorrow we’re having like a barbeque party thing and people are supposed to dress up so they came up with the theme of boys dressing up “like girls” and girls dressing up “like boys” 

1. they make dressing up according to the conventions of the opposite sex a party theme, implying that it is out of the ordinary, that it’s something people are not expected to do on a regular basis
2. they make the assumption that suits, bowties, hairy legs etc are all a “guy” thing whereas dresses, skirts, hairless skin are all “girl” things, further reinforcing oppressive gender stereotypes
3. they make the assumption that there are only guys and girls, nothing in between or separate from 
4. they’re getting excited over oppressing people 

also when i started talking about this to two of my friends, one of them actually said, “oh my god, why do you have to make such a big deal over such a small thing” 

i lost my appetite and i don’t want to speak to anyone anymore bye 

May 21

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Even if your particular depression does include sadness, it’ll only be one of many other symptoms. The others might be much more painful and salient for you than the sadness is. Some people can’t sleep, others gain weight, some think constantly about death, others can’t concentrate or remember anything. Many lose interest in sex, or food, or both. Almost everyone, it seems, experiences a crushing fatigue in which your limbs feel like stone and no amount of sleep ever helps. Then there are headaches, stomachaches, and so on.

So, depression doesn’t necessarily mean sadness to us. (And a gentle reminder to non-depressed folks: being sad doesn’t mean you’re “depressed,” either.)

Depression is not sadness; it’s an illness that often, though not always, involves sadness. No amount of happy things will make a depressed person spontaneously recover, and, usually, no amount of sad things will make a well-adjusted person with good mental health suddenly develop depression. (Grief, of course, is another matter.) And sadness, on its own, does not cause suicide.

[…]People don’t kill themselves because they’re sad. They kill themselves because they have an illness that, among other things, makes them feel sad. It also makes them feel like their life is worthless, like they’re a burden to others, like death would be easier, and all the other beliefs that lead people down the path to suicide.

There is a tendency, I think, to assume that people are depressed because they are sad. A better way to look at it is that people are sad because they are depressed. That’s why, even if we could “turn that frown upside down!” and “just look on the sunny side!” for your benefit, it would do absolutely no good. The depression would still be there, but in a different form.

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(half an hour later) my roommate opened the tuck shop though because she was hungry too now i have HARIBOS!!! and the best part was i could pay for it in pennies!! im so happy 

i’m so pissed!!! i just woke up from a nap cranky as hell and i thought maybe i would go downstairs to the vending machine and get a cold drink but the 70p drinks i usually get were replaced with regular WATER and i’d only brought 70p down with me so i went back upstairs and got 30p more so i could buy another drink for £1 but when i came back down and started loading coins into the machine it rejected my pennies because it only doesn’t accept copper coins?!?!?! THEN I thought i would go to the cafeteria and get myself a fruit or something but though the cafeteria was open they’d taken away all the fruit baskets??!?!??! i’m so angry i hate waking up from naps and i hate pennies forever and ever and ever 

proustitute:

e. e. cummings, “[i like my body when it is with your]”

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May 20

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